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August 31, 2003

Out of the Past

Right, J. over at Silver Rights has a post about "Bloggers explor[ing] life 'on the Down Low'". [Update: And that last link doesn't seem to work, so use the previous one and scroll down. Except you don't have to at the moment, as I'm talking about the most recent entry.) Haven't had much to say about the topic myself, possibly because of my own slightly weird gender/identity/orientation wiring.

Ah well, did a quick Google News search for something on the subject more recent than the Alternet article J. linked to, and came up with a Sun-Times profile of E. Lynn Harris:

The story of Invisible Life (Anchor Books, $12.95) bears some similarity to Harris' own: It's all about a high-achieving black man who is secretly gay.

Ten years later, stories about life on the DL--the down low, or the state of being an ostensibly straight, tough African-American man while also having sex with men--are all over the mainstream media. But in 1993, no one in the publishing world wanted to know anything about it. Harris couldn't find a single taker for his manuscript.

Think the author of the piece, Debra Pickett, is reaching a bit there. Unless being a closeted bi is the same as being. . . is closeted even a word?

And I'm resisting the urge to make a snarky comment about other possible reasons Harris had problems "find[ing] a taker for his manuscript." Never read one of his novels myself, but from what I've heard, I'm not missing much.

I've never read anything by Terry McMillan either, but Harris relates an anecdote about how she thinks. . . oh, hit the link. I can't take any of this seriously.

Got a half-formed notion about Jill Nelson writing a novel while Harris turns to nonfiction/memoir, but meh.

(Parenthtically, RedHeadDread says nice things about [among other people] Nalo Hopkinson and Octavia Butler. since I seemed to be doing a Negro Author Roundup there, and thought I should mention a few whose works I've actually read and enjoyed. Er, except I don't think I ever actually read any Nalo Hopkinson either, come to think of it. Nor did I know she had a blog, which that last link. . . you know, perhaps I've had too much coffee today.)

I'm fairly certain I had a point when I started writing this.

No, really.

np - A Thousand Days, November Project. I blame VASpider.

August 30, 2003

Plus, there's the Ferris Wheel

The Matrix Reloaded is playing at the Navy Pier IMAX through the end of next week. It's tempting, since a) the Burly Brawl™ will probably look even more impressive (or, conversely, more like CGI), and b)

Architect: The first site I designed was quite naturally perfect. It was a work of art. . . flawless, sublime. And triumphed equally only by its monumental failure. The inevitability of its doom is apparent to me now as a consequence of the imperfection inherent in every human being. Thus. I redesigned it based on your history to more accurately reflect the varying grotesqueries of your nature. However, I was again frustrated by failure. I have since come to understand that the answer eluded me because it required a lesser mind, or perhaps a mind less bound by the parameters of perfection. Thus the answer was stumbled upon by another -- an intuitive program, initially created to investigate certain aspects of the human psyche. If I am the father of the site, she would undoubtedly be its Mother.

Me: . . . buh?

Architect: Please. As I was saying, she stumbled upon a solution whereby nearly 99% of all test visitors accepted the site, as long as they were given a choice. . . even if they were only aware of the choice at a near unconscious level. While this answer functioned, it was obviously fundamentally flawed, thus creating the otherwise contradictory systemic anomaly that if left unchecked might threaten the system itself. Ergo those that refused the site, while a minority, if unchecked would constitute an escalating probability of disaster.

Me: . . . buh?

Architect: You are here because Uppity-Negro.com is about to be destroyed -- its every living visitor terminated, its entire existence eradicated.

Me: . . . buh?

Architect: Confusion about my dialogue is the most predictable of all human responses, but rest assured...this will be the 6th time we have destroyed it, and we have become exceedingly efficient at it. The function of the site owner is now to return to viewing the Source, allowing a temporary dissemination of the code you carry, reinserting the prime program. After which, you will be required to select from the site 23 visitors -- 16 females, 7 male -- to rebuild Uppity-Negro.com. Failure to comply with this process will result in a cataclysmic system crash, killing everyone linking to the site, which coupled with the extermination of Uppity-Negro.com will ultimately result in the extinction of the entire human race.

Me: 16 women who post at this site? Um, that'll get you the design and coding skills, sure, but other'n that, I see a tiny flaw in your plan. . .

Architect: There are levels of queerness we are prepared to accept.

I might actually be able to follow The Architect's infodump the second time around.

And c) [and most importantly] IMAX Monica Bellucci. Think about it, won't you?

Anyway, I expect I will have to do some playing around with the code here again. Drapetomaniac mentioned the display problems in IE 5, which normally I would cheerfully ignore, but I just started a full-time job last week. Working for The Man. Or rather, working for a temp agency which is sending me to work for The Man. Which is better'n the guy in the cube next to me, who's working for another temp agency subcontracting with the one I'm working for, putting him at two levels of remove from his place of actual employment. Gotta love that New Economy. . .

Not only does this mean limited or no updates during the day -- sure, no one's said that blogging on company time is a no-no, and it's better to ask forgiveness (upon being caught) than seek permission, but I'm also stuck using The Man's operating system (my first time using Windows 2000 Professional. Gods, I hate it so.), and an older version of The Man's browser, the afore-mentioned IE 5. I expect this is that Instant Karma stuff biting me in the ass.

I should also get around to updating/removing some of the moved/broken links over on the right -- the ones that don't show up in IE5 at the moment. Laura, is the new location permanent? Or as permanent as things get around here, anyway?

Thought about linking the place I'm working and the temp agency what sent me there, seeing as anyone looking me up on Google is going to get here PDQ anyway. But I'll just pretend that neither of them would do such a thing.

August 26, 2003

Again, no Google graphic to mark the occasion

Ah well, suppose it's just a Hallmark holiday anyway. Do they make cards for this?

From Feminist Majority Foundation: Women's Groups Release Scorecard on Bush Administration:

Three women's rights and health groups today commemorated Women's Equality Day by releasing a scorecard rating the Bush administration on global women's issues. The Global Women's Issues Scorecard on the Bush Administration was unveiled at a press conference in Washington, DC this morning featuring leaders of the three groups: Eleanor Smeal, president of the Feminist Majority; Jodi Jacobson, executive director of the Center for Health and Gender Equity (CHANGE); and June Zeitlin, executive director of the Women's Environmental and Development Organization (WEDO). "When women are equal and women are empowered, we are a safer, more secure, and more prosperous world," said Zeitlin.

Basically, they say he talks all compassionate conservative (a "B" for rhetoric), but manages to not actually, you know, do shit (an "F" for the reality).

Nothing to see here, citizens. Good people, please disperse.

Very brief entry, as I'm actually meant to be working now. Possibly more later, but given my track record with returning to half-finished stuff around here, I doubt it. . .

August 23, 2003

On the hood of a police car?

Went to a reading with my sis Thursday night at Women and Children First, which is conveniently located about a block and a half away. For those of you not familiar with 'em:

We are one of the largest feminist bookstores in the country, stocking more than 30,000 books by and about women, children's books for all ages, and the best of lesbian and gay fiction and non-fiction. Anything we don't have in stock we can usually get in a few days' time, even if it's a title outside our specialty. We also carry music, videos, magazines and pride products.

And they do mail order. And offer Independent Bookstore National Gift Certificates, "redeemable at over 1200 independent bookstores across the country," if you're into that supporting local businesses thing. And there's an Affiliate Program, which I suppose I should actually look into at some point. . .

Um, end of plug. Except for mentioning that the home page of their site currently features Inga Muscio's Cunt: A Declaration of Independence (with an introduction by Betty Dodson) and Marjane Satrapi's Persepolis, both of which I really intend to read some day.

Right, the reading. The featured author was Jill Nelson, the book was Sexual Healing. That link takes you to the Agate Publishing site; this is their debut release, as well as Nelson's first novel. Which may explain some of the production errors my sister has mentioned running into in the book, but she's probably just being cranky. Good thing I missed out on that family trait, boy. Haven't read the book yet myself, but there's a excerpt up at NiaOnline.

(Actually, the Star-Tribune Review by David Haynes also mentions, "The only thing that will spoil the fantasy for the picky reader is some truly sloppy writing and editing here and there, but, hey, literature ain't what this trip is about." So it's not just her, but that comment seems a tad, I dunno, condescending, but whether that's towards the author or the [presumed] intended audience or the subject matter is up for debate. End parenthetical, moving on. . .)

I'm not going to write anything vaguely resembling a review based on that and the chapter she read Thursday night. That would be silly.

I'm also not sure about discussing the issues raised in the book -- anyone here challenged by the notion of women taking control of their sexuality? Distressed at the thought of written depictions of sex? I thought not.

Mind you, the novel (from what I've read about it, I caution) tosses in notions of race, class, age and (towards the end) orientation, along with religion, organized and otherwise.

Any road up, this bit (from the NiaOnline excerpt) introduces what the Ebony Magazine reviewer called the "unique and controversial premise" of the novel. I'm going to hope my babbling brings this in under Fair Use:

"Me and my best friend Acey, we're going to open a full-service spa for sisters, and we're looking for people to work there," I say tentatively. Odell raises his eyebrows, the same ones I kissed the night before.

"I work out, but I'm not an aerobics instructor or anything like that," he laughs. "I know you told me last night I had great hands, but I'm not a certified masseuse either." Now it's my turn to laugh.

"Not a spa like that. I mean, yes, a spa like that, but much more. In addition to exercise, massage, herbal wraps, and yoga, we plan to offer other, more personalized services."

"Oh, you mean like personal training?" And because there is no delicate way to say it, and because after last night there surely shouldn't be anything sexual I couldn't say to this man, 'cause there sure ain't nothing sexual I wouldn't do with him, I cut the coy bullshit.

"No. I mean like sex."

"Sex?"

"You remember, S-E-X?" I spell it out. "What we've been doing for the last eight hours?" Odell's smile fades and he looks at me intently. "We plan to open a spa in Nevada, a deluxe retreat where sisters can avail themselves of the whole gamut of customary spa services, with one important addition: fantastic, orgasmic, safe sex. What I'm looking for are sex workers, men who enjoy giving women pleasure and can deliver that sexual healing to the needy masses." I spit this all out in a rush, before I can get embarrassed or intimidated and cop out.

"Sex?" Odell repeats. He says it as if he's never heard the word before, I guess because the context is so new. I laugh.

(Oddly, they'd edited "bullshit" to "bull," enclosing the end of the word in a comment tag, i.e. <!--shit-->. Which, given the context, is weird. And seems like a very odd way of removing the expletive. This is more babbling, obviously.)

Again, relying on what I've heard/read about the novel (some of this from the author at the reading), there's discussion of sex work, safe(r?) sex practices, and helpful tips for male readers. None of this seemed unique or controversial to the audience, but it consisted mostly of women. Possibly mostly queer women, but only two of the questioners identified as such, from what I remember, and the rest I'm just guessing about. But this was in Andersonville, after all.

There were some questions about reactions -- from older women, from men -- and about the suitability of the book for teen readers. The response to which touched on the language used by younger (and possibly not-so-younger) people when talking about sex, and there was a bit about the depiction of women in music videos, or at least parts of women. Again, no surprises here.

Ok, now I'm worried that I'm sounding jaded and slightly bitchy.

Which is why I'm avoiding mentioning that the sex scene in the chapter she read didn't seem particularly explicit or arousing. I do give points for using the term "honeypot," showing that Jill Nelson f<!--uck-->ing represents the Old School.

I may just have a particularly idiosyncratic take on all this, though, and should probably just shut the hell up.

Update: added a link to excerpts from Cunt, courtesy of Lauren in the comments. And one for Persepolis, so the entry would look balanced, not to mention fair.

August 20, 2003

Today's vocabulary word. . .

. . . can be found at the very end of this glowing description of Ava Stander from High Class Cho - Revolutionary Designs from Revolutionary Minds:

Explorer, genius, conquerer, artist, muse, refugee, eternal beauty, sexual scientist - a woman who has never once looked at a 'woman's magazine' - this Stander is truly mad, bad and dangerous to know. As a designer, she had been offered millions by all the major fashion houses, and she turned them all down, tersely stating -"They all be assless." - Margaret Cho

High Class Cho, which I found out about from Margaret's mailing list this morning, is for women who aren't.

Which is most of the women I know, but perhaps this is just a coincidence.

Or genetics.

Or good taste on my part.

In the year 2525

Great. Now I've got the "Cleopatra 2525" theme song stuck in my head . . .

Anyway, *ahem* Hi kids! Like the new design? Credit goes to Michelle, who does truly rawk. She's also the evil genius behind Jason's stylish new(ish) look. So c'mon down to Michelle's Blog Body Shop if you're looking to spruce up your own digs.

And if you don't like the new design, I assure you it was much prettier (and actually worked) before I started playing around with it. Guess I don't actually need to display the pages referring to this one, but I feel it gives a sense of community. Or something.

Any issues I should be aware of? Other than the 640x480 thing, which goes into the same category as "fails to render properly in Netscape 4.x."

Nobody cares, honey. Upgrade.

Update-y thingee: Apparently, the referral script is causing some ugliness in IE for Windows.

Good thing everyone is using a Mac, or Mozilla or Firebird or Opera, or. . . oh, all right, I'll have a look at editing the data file to shorten some of the names or something .

Seems a shame to remove it. Heather's journal is about to hit 2000 visitors, for a start.

August 15, 2003

Returning Fairness and Balance to the Force

Ah, Chicago in the summertime.

On the plus side, we're not affected by the power outages further east. On the not-so-plus side, I'm close enough to the lakefront that the jets from the Air & Water Show keep buzzing overhead. I pity the folks on the top floor of the building.

Not much to add to Fair and Balanced Friday, I'm afraid. Bit of mucking about with the links -- I'm not sure why I hadn't added Soapboxgirls ages ago, except for extreme suckage, and I'd thought that Eschaton was there at one point.

I am much confused.

Don't suppose anyone has a copy of the Brief Lives Sandman tpb handy, to find out what Delirium's word is that means both red and green?

Or have picked up Jill Thompson's At Death's Door, which I really shouldn't even be thinking of buying no matter how much I like her work?

I'm looking for an review here. One which is Fai-- oh, you know the drill by now.

And I added the link to the Sequential Tart interview with Jill up there so I remember to check it out later, since their site seems to be down at the moment. Reading it from the Google cache seems like cheating somehow.

I have a horrible feeling I'm forgetting something or someone. Gentle reminders welcome.

August 14, 2003

Yes, I'm slow

Which is why I just noticed that Kris Dresen has a Fair and Balanced account of The Big Gay Parade 2003, aka Chicago's Pride Parade. Well, it's more Fair and Balanced than mine, anyway. Plus, she has photos.

Which have triggered traumatic flashbacks for me, but hey, I say that about everything. . .

And I'm not sure Get Your War On 26 is ready for prime time, but it's there. Bits of it, anyway.

And I apologize for shamelessly ripping off Bellona Times, but the motto:

"I assume that of the 280 million people in the United States, there must be 150,000 who are concerned with the same things I am. I have no desire to convert. I don't like to preach, and I don't like being preached to. I like to believe that we are civilized people."

That little laugh again. "But sometimes I have odd notions on what is and isn't civilized."

is really too good to pass up. It's from Samuel R. Delany, in SignOnSanDiego.com: Disturbing Delany still pushing literary limits, which also includes this bit:

He can without question be called the world's foremost gay African-American science-fiction writer. But there are those who would argue that "gay" and "African-American" could be struck without affecting the veracity of the statement.

I'm so not going near that one. This Fair and Balanced stuff is harder than it looks.

August 13, 2003

Fair and Balanced can be carried too far, of course

On the one hand, Heather has a new gallery up. For the newcomers, that link might, possibly, not be safe for work. If you do visit, though, you should subscribe, or at least send her a tool belt. Or both.

Meanwhile, Suicide Girls has an interview with Neil Gaiman up.

And I note from his journal that a) he was in Chi for the Tori Amos shows I missed a few days back and b) has a Mini.

And c) he recently had lunch with Elise, which fact I could use to bring this entry full circle, but, um, I've rambled on enough for one day I think. . .

No, I'm not blushing.

Update: but I am slightly rewording. I blame the humidity sucking me brains out me head.

Fair and balanced is a registered trademark

Hey, Atrios started it. And then all the cool kids started jumping in (including Laura and Michelle), so, um, yeah.

Further details and suchlike at AlFrankenWeb.com: A Fair and Balanced Fan Page. Hope the similarities in our site names don't cause confusion in the marketplace. I'd hate to have to take legal action against those kids. . .

Randomly, because that's the sort of day/week/year it's been:

  1. Dominatrix Waitrix:
    Combining narrative, sci-fi, sadomasochism, and musical elements is an ideal forum for questioning power dynamics in the service industry and among lovers. These relationships are complex – sometimes frustrating, sometimes hot. The musical numbers are the repetitive texts and movements of restaurant servers. The science fiction space station is a video patch bay, connecting satellite surveillance cameras in restaurant bathroom stalls. The narrative asks the ultimate question of, not, “will she be rescued?” or “will they fall in love?” but rather, “who will top whom?”
  2. The Drag King Anthology:
    This unique book dispels the myth that drag kings are simply “women doing drag,” presenting entertaining and enlightening essays that address gender, sexuality, and feminism. Using prose, poetry, and photographs, an eclectic mix of scholars, performers, and fans offer cultural and political insights on the international growth and development of drag king troupes and communities.
  3. LISTENER: A book for the Internet in sixty entries -- thanks to Jason for pointing me to that one. No quotes. It's Warren Ellis. This should be all you need to know.

Went to an art opening with me sis and Pamela Friday night. We ended up at the Heartland Cafe, as all good people should, and the two of them started brainstorming about a lesbian dating service.

Rather than figuring I had nothing worthwhile to contribute to the conversation and shutting the hell up, I carelessly suggested a name.

Which was immediately accepted.

There's possibly a moral here, but I'm steadfastly refusing to consider any.

I'm not as evil as I could be, you know.

I could have linked the words "me sis and Pamela" to photos from the Dominatrix Waitrix benefit, which I'd declined to attend with 'em a few weeks back.

Or I could have linked directly to the photo of them.

But I'm not that evil.

I'm Fair and Balanced.

Says so right in the title.

August 8, 2003

When the Gnats in the Walls come out, it's all over

Right, first off there's an interview with Nick Park over at the Guardian, which I noticed linked at Nausicaa.net a few days back:

Success brings with it pressure to conform. I always thought that success would lead to freedom, but the opposite is true: more people get involved and committees make decisions, and it becomes a fight to stay free. My colleagues and I have to constantly remind each other that we must keep our own view on the world while making films. With Chicken Run, we learned how easy it is to be influenced by outside forces, but you mustn't lose the heart and soul of what you are doing. Spirited Away is the most successful Japanese film of all time, yet it is very idiosyncratic, and personal. Miyazaki has managed to make his success work.

Yes, that Nick Park, if you didn't recognize the name immediately.

Yet I don't expect anyone to not know who Miyazaki is. Odd, that.

Spent the last two days doing my very best Professor Umbridge, Hogwarts High Inquisitor impression, visiting places with a clipboard and trying to look like I had the slightest idea what I was doing. I don't think anyone bought it.

Street Level Youth Media, one of the sites I spent time at, deserves much more of a write-up than I'm capable of doing at the moment. From the 1998 Coming Up Taller Awards page:

At Street-Level Youth Media, professional artists familiarize young people with new media technologies and the art making process, stressing teamwork, creativity, self-esteem and critical thinking. Street-Level is breaking down barriers between young people, their neighborhoods and the outside world, giving youth a forum to express their views on topics such as education, violence, families, racism and history.

That was Wednesday. I spent most of yesterday at Cabrini Green.

No, I wasn't worried. Why should I have been? I had a clipboard, remember?

As for the title, last weekend Tiny Insects Swarm[ed] Chicago:

University of Illinois entomologist Phil Nixon said this year's cool spring and recent summer rains could be to blame for the infestation. Normally the gnats are thickest in late April and May, when eggs laid in decaying vegetation warm up and hatch in a moist environment. "They should have been coming out a month and a half ago," Nixon said. Philip Parrillo, collection manager for the Field Museum's insect division, said he started getting calls about gnats on the lakefront late in the week. He said the magnitude is unusual, especially for midsummer.

"There's a tremendous flush of them this season," he said.

That last line is a slight understatement. We're talking Biblical levels here. Like looking at the world through rippling, light green gauze.

I blame Bush.