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October 10, 2003
static, a whisper on another line
Well, not gone. There's a parking page, and a link to Club Mac, which Rodney might have appreciated.
Or not. I never met the man, and it's too late to ask him now.
And the columns, the graphics, everything that made the site his, those are gone.
And for some bizarre reason, my employer blocks the Archive, so I can't even tell at the moment if any of it is preserved there.
Didn't think the family -- or whoever takes care of such matters -- would leave the site up forever, but . . . no, that's a lie. I thought they would, that someone would.
But it's been more than two years. I suppose that's more than long enough.
From No Time For Suicide, over at Margaret Cho's site:
I am tired of life. It's too messy. It will never be clean. No matter what, I have never been able to live it the way that I should have. If I had only been more careful, thoughtful, smarter, shrewder, cautious, selective… if I didn't always throw myself into experience, toss the elements of my life like a salad, just to see what it would taste like. I have never lived up to my potential, and my attempts to do so will never measure up to my expectations and the fact that I have measured what is good and acceptable is stupid and set up to make sure that no matter what I do, I feel like a failure. Love has remained forever elusive, and the current state of my relationships show no improvement. This however bothers me less than the constant well meant advice that I get from friends, the reminders of what I do wrong, how I do it wrong, why I do it wrong, what I should do now, what I need to do now, who they will pick for me in future.…the cure will kill you, don't you know? How do I have the heart to tell them I am not planning on a future?
It gets less maudlin towards the end.
Suicide is on my mind frequently, but unlikely, as I have an innate curiosity that makes me want to see how things will turn out.
For certain definitions of "maudlin" and "less" I suppose.
Some of his columns are still available, at Mac Observer and Low End Mac and Applelinks. And does anyone here read Japanese?
Title from a poem at VASpider's.
np -- Temporary and Eternal, Happy Rhodes, RhodeSongs
Update: As it turns out, the Archive does have the site, including the ever-(un)popular The Mac is the 'Nigger' of the Computer Industry column.
By the very mention of race in a public forum, I have committed a gross sin.No one will ever admit it, but there is an unwritten rule that says "thou shalt not discuss race." Race makes people uncomfortable. The subject of race makes Whites and non-Whites uncomfortable when addressed in "mixed company" -- that is, when the audience is made up of people of more than one race. Oh, it's okay to discuss race when everyone is of the same race (and of the same opinion), but don't you dare do it when and where it may cause discussion.
There is another reason people don't like discussing race: it causes Whites to feel pangs of "white guilt," and it causes blacks to feel increased, self-righteous racial anger.
I'm feeling that self-righteous anger pretty fucking strongly right now myself.
Posted by Aaron at October 10, 2003 11:12 AM
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